Friday, July 22, 2011

Disney isn't doing girls any favors

Is it so unreasonable to want the fairy tale? Is it so much to ask that you are just important to another person and that they make you feel that way? I have come to the realization that I want someone who wants me back. All of me. I want someone who is going to fight for me. Even when they have me, I want them to fight to keep me. Every person I have been with since my first love has just...walked. Like it's easier to just walk away and get over the heartache than to actually fight for what they say they supposedly want. It didn't matter how many times I gave my first love the cold shoulder or horrible blow offs, he kept fighting. For YEARS. It wasn't until he gave up that fight that I realized what that really meant to me and what it must have done to him. I want that fight in the right man. And I'm willing to wait.

I don't think I'm asking for much either. I want someone who will brush their teeth with me at night. Someone who, without a single word, moves his legs over to my side of the bed because he knows my feet are cold. Someone who, even though they don't like her, is nice to my cat. A person who thinks my little annoying traits are cute. Someone patient. Someone who isn't afraid to listen to my tirade of all the shit going on in my life and isn't going to make me feel like I have a communicable disease if I cry. In the end, I just want to be appreciated and spoiled with affection. If you really love someone as much as you should to be in that kind of serious relationship, then you should want to do that for them anyway. I want someone who can reassure me I don't have to be afraid to fall.

Someone who will catch me.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

No ...You're Not.




"Rolling In The Deep"

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare
See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it's bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you
And I'm gonna make your head burn
Think of me in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there
As mine sure won't be shared

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
It all, it all, it all
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

We could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)

You could have had it all
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)

But you played it
You played it
You played it
You played it to the beat.