Friday, July 22, 2011

Disney isn't doing girls any favors

Is it so unreasonable to want the fairy tale? Is it so much to ask that you are just important to another person and that they make you feel that way? I have come to the realization that I want someone who wants me back. All of me. I want someone who is going to fight for me. Even when they have me, I want them to fight to keep me. Every person I have been with since my first love has just...walked. Like it's easier to just walk away and get over the heartache than to actually fight for what they say they supposedly want. It didn't matter how many times I gave my first love the cold shoulder or horrible blow offs, he kept fighting. For YEARS. It wasn't until he gave up that fight that I realized what that really meant to me and what it must have done to him. I want that fight in the right man. And I'm willing to wait.

I don't think I'm asking for much either. I want someone who will brush their teeth with me at night. Someone who, without a single word, moves his legs over to my side of the bed because he knows my feet are cold. Someone who, even though they don't like her, is nice to my cat. A person who thinks my little annoying traits are cute. Someone patient. Someone who isn't afraid to listen to my tirade of all the shit going on in my life and isn't going to make me feel like I have a communicable disease if I cry. In the end, I just want to be appreciated and spoiled with affection. If you really love someone as much as you should to be in that kind of serious relationship, then you should want to do that for them anyway. I want someone who can reassure me I don't have to be afraid to fall.

Someone who will catch me.